simple and clean

when you walk away
you don't hear me say.. please...
oh..baby..don't go

ah... the theme song of kingdom hearts sung by utada hikaru...

the game is killing me.. it's harder than ff8 (which i haven't really finished) cuz it involves real-time battle.. that means.. no taking turns in attacking enemies.. and wait.. all enemies spring on you at the same time.. and voila! i died faster than i can press anything.

*phew*

anyway.. .i went to the singapore conference hall this morning.. at 8 (!!!) to attend the central judging of syf. horrendous.. cuz first they threatened not to start the event til all students.. jc and below are out of the hall.. in fear of disruptions... then they say... either you are 21 years or above... or you show your university matriculation card... else you get out.

wonderful. i'm 19 and nus hasn't given out the card yet.

i've to stand outside.. thank god wei yee was with me (she's in arts too....ah.. so happy) while they announced the results.. and... KIDS! secondary school students who are so noisy... shhh-ing everyone.. .that was so bloody irritating.. and even noisier themselves... i finally got so fed up ... i shouted.

"will you guys stop the shhhh-ing thing?! that's so noisy and irritating!"

it worked.. hahaa.. .i didn't do it really ..sky-high loud .. but.. guess it was loud enough? haha....

all's not lost of cuz.. pervert was back! from perth.. but she's going back on 24th.. and we're having a bbq over at her place this coming monday.. i'm pretty looking forward to it too.. cuz then i can see some friends whom i haven't heard from in a long time.

ah....

listening to: utada hikaru -- simple and clean

kou kou kyoushi (high school teacher)

.. a 280+ page chinese book... fully written vertically in traditional chinese which i finished in one shot yesterday night... written by a japanese reowned novelist, nojima shinji.

it almost drove me to tears.

no..it wasn't a particularly touching story. it's not even a love story.. to me. after reading the whole book.. i just feel.. disgusted and disappointed with human life. i can say that this is the darkest-themed book i've ever come across. it's even darker than me...

kou kou kyoushi is about hamura takao, a high school teacher who was being forced into the profession because he didn't get into the good books of an important professor from a research center, also the father of his fiance. he was originally a reserved, shy and boring guy but then he got to know ninomiya mayu, a student of the high school he was teaching. eventually they fell in love, only to let him discover that mayu was actually having a sexual relationship with her father. in the end, unable to take it, takao caused the death of mayu's father and the both of them killed themselves.

incest, teacher-student love affair, rape (mayu's friend was raped by a teacher), suicide and murder.. all these were featured in the story. many times.. i almost couldn't continue with it.. because it was just too much and too heavy for me... but well.. of course i continued... haha... or i would have missed a very good story.

finishing it.. it almost drove me crazy. one... i was truly disheartened by the harshness of reality and the dark side of humans... second.. i totally loved the way the author wrote it.. at the beginning and end of every chapter was a little monologue by the male lead, takao. i particularly liked the second last chapter, "Our Failure" (Bokutachi no shippai), where takao realized that despite knowing that he loved mayu, sub-conciously, he still despised her for maintaining such a relationship with her father...

nojima shinji is known for exploring and putting into light the dark sides of human beings. and now i know.

anyway... kou kou kyoushi was actually adapted into a japanese drama... which was unfortunately banned in singapore then... that's 1993... now...ten years later... a new version starring fujiki naohito has surfaced but i am unsure whether i wanna watch it. from what i heard... the story in the new version is slightly different... it ain't that dark or heavy anymore.. but.. it's still ain't light either...

wait til i get into a depressed mood. haha.

listening to: fan wei qi -- na xie hua er.

ah.... nice

i bought a playstation 2 last week. and i haven't got any games yet... except...

finding nemo.

surprisingly.. it's not an easy game. in other words.. it's hard. right... i can see myself spending years on games like kingdom hearts and final fantasy now. pathetic me.

rpg.. what a challenge.

i've started a chinese diary... cuz i've realized that i can express myself better in chinese. it ain't exactly a translation of what i write here... the things there could be really different from here.

ah... uneventful life. nothing to write.

listening to: nothing.