not found

i went sightseeing alone.
and ate a lot of nice snacks on the way.
what more can i complain about now?
even when i'm alone...
i hop on the bus.. singing a little song.
because at this time... my heart is dead.

ah... .my dishwashing job starts tomorrow.. i'm pretty excited... cuz i've never done something like that before...
got a deal... serve at istana.. ah.. i don't know.
it seems interesting but i'm afraid i'll spill something on someone important..

i hate making decisions.

listening to: mr. children -- not found

catch you catch me

if i didn't had to go through so much...
how would i be able to get to you?

ah.... i was watching yuyu hakusho & rurouni kenshin...falling in love with kurama and kenshin all over again... while appreciating my new feelings for aoshi.. ho ho .. if you don't get what i'm saying... you most probably won't.. it's alright. haha...

the two shows focus a lot on friendships between men... and... how i envy such friendships.

men... they have the strongest friendships... ok.. minus those situations u always see on tv.. fall out with each other over some babe... that really isn't what i'm trying to say.. haha.. but there's just something between men.. a chinese saying goes... heroes always appreciate one another... ah.. something like that. the way they hold on to their friendship.. i guess it's something women just can't do... we fell out with each other over the puniest things ... something that "thing" doesn't even exist.. get what i mean?

sigh.

oh but well.. i do have good friends.. male.. female... unknown.. haha...

ok.. i dunno what the hell i'm talking now. i'd better stop.

listening to: s.h.e -- hua dou kai hao le

those flowers

the sound of those laughters reminded me of my flowers
they quietly bloom at the corner of my life
i once thought i would stay by his side forever
today... we are all on different paths.

they must have grown old...
where are they?
just like that... we are on our different paths.

oh... how i miss her.
is she still blooming?
go...go..
they are all blown away by the breeze.

the stories that are not finished... just let it be.
through the time... feelings are no longer real.
right now.. .there are no more flowers here.
but i was lucky to once own the seasons with you.

oh... how i miss her.
is she still blooming?
go...go..
they are all blown away by the breeze.

they must have grown old...
where are they?
just like that... we are on our different paths.

where have all the flowers gone?
where have all the young girls gone?
where have all the young men gone?
where have all the graveyards gone?

listening to: fan wei qi -- na xie hua er

under

under the umbrella.
there stands one person called... me.
the rain.. it transform into a melody.
relating a story unseen... some tragedy.
like the short encounter with the umbrella.

standing still.. not moving.
letting the rain combine with my breath.
it felt so sudden.. this wet weather.
like something before.

it was raining that day.

in full bloom

it's glowing in its own colours.
the scent has developed.
they are in full bloom.

recently.. i have this thing about flowers especially in songs.. now that i'm beginning to start writing lyrics again.. i'm trying to incorporate this idea into them... but well.. i guess i still need quite a bit of hard work to write something nice... to get into the stage of "hiding in the night"... apparently avis and eden like it... haha.. credit goes to penny dai pei ni. it's her song.

today was the beginning of my weiqi class... bummer... it got postponed and shall only start next week... but zhengmei and i got to see some experts at play... and boy are we confused... we had no idea what the hell they were doing and talking about... but.. no fret.. next week and i shall show my potential.

as if.

i'm going through this stage in which i'm beginning to fall for tragical ... sad ... sorrowful.. bitter sweet themes in songs. not just the lyrics.. but also the melody and rhythm. guess there's always a time when people just get melancholy?

anyway.. i read the first 6 books of cardcaptor sakura... and well.. i'm not saying i'm very into BL (Boy-Love... it means "gay" in mangas)... but i think yukito and touya make a good pair. haha..

and i bought new shoes today.. ha. just before the shop, urs & inc closed.. i like doing such last minute stuff.. cuz it gives u no time to consider.

listening to: s.h.e -- hua dou kai hao le