x-men

... i've watched it for the second time.. and boy do i love rogue's streak of white hair... it looks better than storm's entirely-white hair...and it's cheaper to do rogue's if i really want it.. i think i'll look crazy if i do it. hahaha...

and i realized i'm contradicting myself. a part of me always says ... i don't wanna be different... i wanna be just like everyone else... normal.. equal and basically... just the same. but yet another part of me says... i wanna be different.. i wish i could just be like a mutant.. with powers and everything... with something that normal people won't and can't have. i've always wanted to be a witch... to be able to do some really special things and control some part of life... mine and others. heck... i even have my own Book of Shadows...filled with spells and potion-making lists. i actually went to do it.

so.. what do i want ? normal.. or different? i don't know... i can't stand being outcast as different... but i hate to be just like everyone else either. i can't make up my mind. or maybe i just wanna be different in a ... a way that is never possible.

what the hell am i talking about?

listening to: sugababes -- shape