too sad... too soon.

well..yet another two left work today... lynn and sinmi. it wasn't really sad... except that i guess i'll miss sinmi more than i will about lynn... cuz.. well.. hmmm.. .i guess i like sinmi better. i went out with her twice.. and she's just a very nice person... i can feel free to talk about anything with her. but with lynn? hmmm.. it's pretty pressurizing. i ain't disliking her or anything.. but i just.. feel very tensed and burden around her. one wrong word.. and you become a joke of hers. and the way she talk.. i don't know.. she speaks in an american slang... well not exactly slang.. but the way she speaks.. the words she uses.. the sentence structures she constructs her sentences in... it's very very american. actually.. i do speak like that.. but not on default. the only person whom i can speak to and accept her talking in this way is valerie. only valerie.

and so all of us took some pictures before we left for dinner... and kailing.. the one whom we have the least contact with .. ground-breakingly took the pictures with us too... well... she's pretty nice too.. but sometimes i'm just a bit intimidated .. cuz she seem... aggressive. right.. i realized i'm easily intimidated by everyone...anyone! oh but she couldn't join us cuz she's going to watch X-Men 2...i wanna watch that too... though i'm pretty sick of all the hype about wolverine ( my favourite's rouge... cuz she's hot and has a cool streak of white hair) and it probably has a non-existent plot ( don't kill me, die-hard X-Men fans.) . but i'll still watch it. for the sake of... watching it.

we had dinner at kenny rogers....a restaurant that i've plainly been to too many times in too short a period. i just went there , like... last week? all the maceroni cheese is making me FAT! i swear... to the rain. .to the sky.. to the moon... to... the trees that i will start dieting tomorrow. i WILL. ok right.. so all of us were there except lynn and her... we-are-holding-hands-but-we-are-not-romantically-involved photographer friend. that's where all the questions set in. how can you hold hands with a .. normal friend? and why the hell would he wanna be around some girls whom he absolutely don't know at all? ah..there are just some things in the universe which we cannot ever fathom.

and fate... something that always leave us in awe. plus lynn and her un-fathomable friend.. we had 8 of us.. me , sinmi , irene, karyen , zetti and qiuling. and the manager at the restaurant ( i hate him. he acts like a woman.. at least i think so . ) told us.. " we only have a table for six and a table for two. " ... we're like.. good good good! in the end.. they came late and they decided not to eat and go taking photos instead... yet another thing i cannot understand. totally. but i will not try. anyway.. when they came and were sorta like stuck outside..we acted like nothing happened... until irene said " this looks bad... we looked like nothing is happening. " so i said " oh... let's look sad. " then when they walked off.. i said " oh.. now we don't have a chance to look sad anymore."

irene then asked me " why are you so pissed?" ... and that was like...a slap in my face. i wasn't pissed.. i just felt like saying something bad. and that made me look.. even.. worst. haha...sorry yeah. haha.

well then... we took a lot of photos.. i look so fat in them... but all in all.. it was a good day.. a good dinner. too bad i have to go now.. my brother is screaming at me. something's very wrong with him. he's either getting dumped by his on-off-so-many-times-no-one-can-count girlfriend or... heck.

who cares?

listening to: ayumi hamasaki -- i am...