you are not alone

there is some fiction in your truth...
and some truth in your fiction.
to find out the truth, you must risk everything.

how true, how true.

that's probably the only line i understood from the whole nine animations in the much-talked-about feature, the animatrix. i don't know... maybe i haven't been through so many things in life to gain such a perspective on life to actually understand WHAT THE HELL the whole thing is trying to say. but.. oh well.. it wasn't THAT bad... it managed to provoke some emotions of mine.. and let's just face it... humans are actually going on the path of self-destruction.

as if this topic never came up.

graphic wise, the animation is pretty disturbing. machines get dismantled in front of your eyes... men bleeding, torn apart and screaming so pathetically, it almost makes you wonder if that's what you are going to face in say, 50 years? but the things that happen in the matrix.. well.. perhaps right now.. i'm just someone who's being duped and refuses to take the red pill in fear of facing the ugly truth. or is it the blue pill? damn.. it doesn't matter.

reality is virtual.

life is cruel i guess. reality gets into everyone's head and then i realize that my significant other will never look as good as fukuyama masaharu or have a character as nice as nagase hiromi. ah... the cruelities of life. doesn't it just hits you when seeing how some people gets EVERYTHING?

well.. i must say i ain't as negative as before. is that a good thing? well i suppose it is, since i don't toy with the idea of killing myself as often nowadays. and now, i wanna be part of a news team.. ah.. the wonder of media. they just make you follow what you see on tv, isn't it? but i guess it'll be a really interesting job though.. ok.. maybe my co-worker won't look as good. haha.

ok. i'm in a stage of self-denial.

listening to: tension -- tell me why