it's all in your mind

when pride builds me up til i can't see my soul
will you break down these walls and pull me through?

i have a bitch for a sister. someone tell me why i deserve this. we fought just now for the computer.. she hogs it so much and yet refuses to pay for me. f--king bitch.

apparently i must have done a lot of bad things in my previous life to get something like this.
oh dear god.. i promise i'll be good from now on.

ah... the wonder of weiqi. i've yet to really master it.. i feel so demoralized cuz i lost every single game at class. well.. i still can't do things like.. keep my mind in peace... and foresight stuffs. i just can't...i guess i need a lot more of training.. so as to calm my mind ... be at peace during a game. and i look forward to activities in the nus weiqi sub-club.. guess that's where i can really play go... haha

my stomach's in a mess now.. a prata wrap and a chicken pie later... i had to go to the washroom.. and.. no prize for guessing what happened there. haha.. i regret it now.. cuz eeeewwwwww.. i feel so bloated and.. oily. yucks.

i'm going to start on my japanese drama... antique tomorrow... it stars takizawa hideaki.. naohito fujiki... and kipei shiina... ah... all good actors... ah.. kipei shiina ain't really droolsome material like the other two.. but he's got the kinda face that just grows on you....haha.. i'm looking forward to it...

listening to: nothing... my speakers' off.